Okay, I didn't mention it on the blog but a few weeks ago, after I had given up all hope of ever finding a home for MASQUERADE I got 3 more partial requests. I recieved the first rejection yesterday.
HOWEVER, it was a personal rejection letter and although she said it wasn't the right home for her, she did say I had a lot of talent and if I found the right niche, she thought I could be very successful. Now, I don't know how much of this was bullcrap and how much of this was truth, but she did address the letter to me personally and it was not the standard words used in a form rejection.
So, what I've come away with is...someone (an agent) thinks I have talent. That's good. What I don't have is a good enough story. Not so good.
I've done a lot of thinking about this the last few days...I had a revelation Monday morning about MASQUERADE which is making me rethink the whole opening. I could rework it to make it stronger, I do know now what the problem is. Another HOWEVER, I don't think I want to. I would be "writing for the market", not for myself. I would have to make the characters something they're not and I don't want to do that. I spewed a whole post writing about the integrity of my writing so if I "write for the market" then I call myself a hypocrit.
I have decided that when the other rejections come in (and I know they will) I'm going to put it on the shelf. I had so hoped that I would be able to make my platform on Regency romance but that's not to be the case.
So, I've decided that when I get back from Rhode Island, I'm going to go full steam ahead with REMEMBERING YOU the Genna & Tony story. I'm going to finish it over the summer and revise as soon as the baby goes to school. I'm shooting to query by the end of September.
Hopefully I'll come back from RI with a whole different attitude about this situation. I'm kind of sad that William and Penny aren't going to get the place in the bookstores that they deserve. I've been stuck in MASQUERADE mode for so long I feel like someone has died.
Tell me ~ How do you feel when you know the story you've slaved over just isn't what you thought it was going to be? Do you rework it or do you just stick it under the bed with the dust bunnies?
**** I know with the summer months a lot of us, myself included, have gone to a M-W-F posting schedule. Due to my upcoming vacation, I decided to post my 'SOMETHING-SOMETHING' post (the Genna & Tony sex scene) yesterday. For those of you who missed it, or thought I was posting it today, please feel free to scroll down and take a look. And please don't be scared that there's sex in it. There's not.