Good Monday Morning, gentle readers. I'm back. I think. Well, I've been back for a couple of days now, but with my cousin in town, and the traveling I've been doing, I feel like I've been gone for months.
I spent most of the early weekend catching up on blogs and following new friends (and for those of you I haven't followed back, please leave me your address in the comments so I may).
I want to say Thank You and say Welcome to all my new friends: Natascha, Lisa K., Stacy, C.R., dirtywhitecandy, Uma, Jennifer, Writing Nut, Liza, February, Nicole, Dawn, Cynthia, Meoldy, Olivia, Chazda, Theresa, Barbara, Jamie and Angela. Wowee, I can't believe I even found new friends while I was away. There's a pot of coffee and a buffet in the dining room, and the pool is open from 9-5, bathing suits are required (sorry). Feel free to grab a cup and hang with us, there's always something to talk about.
And if you missed my awards post over the weekend be sure to scroll down and see if you're there. Because I've got some heavy duty linkage going on and I don't want to waste it. Especially those of you who are new to my blog.
Al from Publish or Perish is having a fantab contest, he's giving away piccies from his blog and if you haven't checked out how wonderful they are you're missing a trip Down Under!
Now as most of you know, I've been having thoughts about retiring MASQUERADE from the querying trenches. I still have two partial requests out on it and of course, will probably not hear back for some time. While on vacation I decided (I'm almost positive) I am going to set it aside for the time being. I've heard from my alpha readers and I know what I have to do to "fix" it, not that there's anything "wrong" with it, but I know it's not marketable as is. (Well, truthfully for the market I want to sell it to.) Now that's not a bad thing, I just don't have it in me to rework it right now. It's a time consuming task and after all the rewrites I've already done, I'm just sick of it. Sure it's a good book, and I'll always love it, and I know once you get past chapter 4, it's a great book, but the beginning, although not totally sucky, just isn't what it could be. So she's going under the bed for now.
I also want to say the heat down here is totally kicking my ass. I can't form a coherent thought to save my soul. Genna is languishing at an open air bistro on the bay with Pete and I just can't seem to write the rest of the conversation. Oh how I want to. I need to move on, I need to find out what the doctor said about Aunt Fortuna, I need to find out what Robby decided about Lauren and the baby (oops, didn't know about that did you?) I need to find out when Tony is going to show up again. But I just can't seem to get 'er done. I even joined the Summer Novel challenge. Everyone else has already finished with their WIP but me.
Now I know 2000 words a day isn't much. I've done it before. Hell, I've even been known to write 5K a day. 14k in one weekend once. I don't know if it's the summer, or the heat, or the fact MB is in the background singing to any of her new movies and I can't concentrate, or if it's just me.
I know there are other writers out there who are sort of in the same sticky wicket that I am. I am not alone. Which is nice, in a way, but not. Now some say, just sit down and write. Every day. Others say -- take a break, do something else. I'm all for taking a break but I've been breaking for so long I feel I'm stopped. Which I am.
And it's not a block. I think I'm just overwhelmed with my choices. Going into Genna & Tony, I had a clear cut picture of what the book was going to be, how it was going to look, and the ending. Now, because of some of the choices I've made, I'm going off in all kinds of directions and the outline has been thrown out the window.
Aunt Fortuna is one of my main sticking points. She's told me she doesn't want Alzheimer's (and I can't blame her one bit) but I also know someone else has used the other diagnosis Lydia kindly gave me. I don't want to plagiarize. So I think Aunt Fortuna is going to have a heart attack instead. But when, and where, and will Pete still show up at the right time? See what I mean?
And now Robby has told Genna Lauren is pregnant. Why? Do I really want to have that happen? Does it move the story forward or is it just filler? And what the hell am I going to do about Tony? He and Genna had sex but I can't put the scene where I want because it would screw up the timeline I've made, and if I put it anywhere else, it doesn't make sense. And do I really want to make him the bad guy? He does love her. He always has. And she's been in love with him since she was 14. So now what????
It's funny, I'm always saying I love angst -- I guess I should rephrase that now -- I love angst when it's happening to someone else, not me.
Stay tuned for Wednesday...I wrote the scene from Tony's POV of the night when he first meets Genna that I'm going to post. Maybe after you read it, you'll understand why I'm/Genna's having such a hard time deciding between Pete and Tony.